prologue to reality.

4/365. this is a “I was at work all day and I decided to...

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 03:14:51 -0500

4/365.

this is a “I was at work all day and I decided to put off my 365 picture for today so it’s basically really crappy.” so, there’s that.

tomorrow’s my last full day at home for break. and I’m spending it working.

this is my life. welcome.

this is some extra stuff I shot along with my 365 today. also...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 02:01:31 -0500

this is some extra stuff I shot along with my 365 today. also some thoughts that I wanted to share.

I think that one of my favorite parts of being bald is that it sort of forces you to look more closely at a person to see their beauty. like, a lot of times I feel like people generalize and look at a person and instantly make judgements about them based on their outfit and hair because those two things stick out a lot. but, like, when you don’t have hair, I know I’m always drawn to find something else about the person that is beautiful. not that having a bald head isn’t beautiful, but I feel like since that instant thing isn’t there anymore, you naturally look for something else. and I think that it’s cool that a lot of times people are drawn to eyes for beauty. I think it’s cool because it forces you to really look at a person. it’s all deep and stuff. ooooh.

anyway.

I think my self confidence has grown immensely since I shaved my head. at first I was super afraid to go places with no/ungirlishly short hair. but then I kinda came to the conclusion that if I was going to be this way for a while, I need to embrace and rock it, even when people give me funny looks. Or think that I’m recovering from cancer. so now when I go to work and people constantly bring up the fact that my hair is short, it doesn’t really phase me or make me upset or decrease my level of confidence. I think when I first went to work (at my job at school… that was awful) I felt really awkward and uncomfortable. but I think I just got used to getting looked at a little bit funny. and then also I just learned that even though it looks different, it’s still beautiful and I can still look and feel beautiful even without hair. :D

(I feel like this is a lot of rambling, sorry. I’m almost done.)

Tonight at work I saw a little boy who had a bald head, and I assume that it wasn’t a fashion statement for him. and my heart just felt really warm when I saw him because I knew that I did something to help him, and that just felt really good.

3/365. sidenote: this is day 3 and I’m already posting...

Fri, 04 Jan 2013 01:15:16 -0500

3/365.

sidenote: this is day 3 and I’m already posting late… oops… :D

I love this quote so much.

I think it’s about self efficacy (I think this is an effective word to use here…?) as well as the way you treat others. like, I know a lot of people say you are your own worst enemy, but I think that a lot of time we try to come up with what we call excuses a lot of times. but I really feel like if we were trying to come up with “excuses” for other people, it would be legitimate and more graceful than excuse-ful. and I think holding yourself to a standard of saying “I’m not perfect, but I’ll try my best” is really a good thing. because that way there’s a lot less self-hate and internal judgement of yourself/others. because if you’re not graceful with yourself, how are you supposed to be graceful to/around others?

hm. I think this project might get a little deep sometimes.

GET PUMPED, KIDS.

today was good. I drank three cups and coffee and felt like I could take on the world. and then I went to work. so there’s that.

2/365. I like this quote lots. and I think it’s a good...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 12:20:39 -0500

2/365.

I like this quote lots. and I think it’s a good thing to remember if I actually want to complete this project. :)

also I think it can be applied to a lot of things in life. I like to give up on things easily. like, really really easily. because I feel like unless I can do them perfectly, I might as well not do them. but I perpetually feel like I miss out on a lot of good things because of that.

the next few days are going to be very work/stress-filled. but at least I like my job. and I’ll feel like I’m not being entirely lazy. :D also making some money never hurt. especially when you’re a broke college kid. :P

1/365. I really really want to try doing a 365 again. but I...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 00:14:37 -0500

1/365.

I really really want to try doing a 365 again. but I don’t want to make a big deal about it. because I feel like I’m going to wake up tomorrow and come up with a bunch of reasons why not to do one. again.

1. I haven’t updated this in a long time. but I will again. :)

2. I’m bald (well, okay, I just have ungirlishly short hair right now)! because I raised money for childhood cancer research for st. baldrick’s/donated it to locks of love. :) it was a super cool experience.

3. my idea for this 365 so that it’s my own personal spin is that each day will have a quote. that either reflects that day or is a quote that I’ve always liked. because I’ve always liked quotes. :)

4. maybe I’ll keep you updated on my life sometimes. we’ll see. :P

This is the video that I made somewhat recently for my speech...

Sun, 22 May 2011 16:36:45 -0400

This is the video that I made somewhat recently for my speech and performance class. We had to make a music video, and since dream team consists of four people and we love each other quite a lot, this would be a good song to do. :)

I’m really really happy with the way it turned out.

oh jeez. senior year is almost over. I have TWO DAYS LEFT. and...

Sun, 22 May 2011 16:31:45 -0400

oh jeez.

senior year is almost over. I have TWO DAYS LEFT.

and part of me is really excited and part of me is still unaware that it’s happening and will therefore be an emotional wreck when it’s all over. not that a lot of it isn’t already over, but still.

-I went on a photo shoot with krista and elaine after they graduated yesterday! the pictures turned out WONDERFULLY. I love them so much. (see a few of them above!)

-I went to Boston a few weekends ago and it was really fun. We saw Blue Man Group, toured the city, went on the Spirit of Boston Cruise and went to a ridiculous awards ceremony dinner/dance. There were SO many crazy bands at this awards ceremony where we’re pretty convinced that band really was some of those peoples lives, but it was mostly really stupid. The trip over all, however, was really fun. There are a few pictures from it above.

-I stayed with Mary for a few days after we got home from Boston because her parents were away on a business trip and her siblings were still away at college. So we had a few days to hang out together and it was lots of fun. :)

-I’ve been working like crazy… but I love my job, so that’s very okay with me. :)

-I went through craploads of prom dress/date drama. But it’s over now. And I will be having a rather mediocre prom. But whatever. I guess (hope) it will still be semi-fun.

murrrr. life has been busy. I visited BG again. I’ve been...

Sat, 26 Mar 2011 19:57:07 -0400

murrrr. life has been busy.

I visited BG again.

I’ve been working like crazy.

I had my last contest and bands-in-the-round this week. (we got a 2 at contest. boo.)

I was in the speech play. and it was lots of fun. :) although it made me lose my voice, but it was worth it.

I took pictures of my gorgeous friend Lauren the other day. (those are the pictures you’re seeing up above.) I took them with my sister’s DSLR and I cannot wait to get mine!

Wow. I haven’t updated in like, over a month. I’m...

Tue, 01 Feb 2011 21:07:56 -0500

Wow. I haven’t updated in like, over a month. I’m sorry.

Recent happenings:

-I GOT A JOB! I work at Chick-Fil-A and I start in a week and a half ish.

-I’m on my second half of senior year and I can’t believe it.

-Christmas was just… meh. It was okay. I just wish my family was more enjoyable to be around during the holidays. I actually went to church on christmas eve this year though, which was nice.

-I saw Black Swan a few weeks ago and it was SUPER awesome, even though it was also super awkward.

-I got fake married for sociology a while back and my “husband” and I went on an epic shopping adventure. :) We got 100% on our project, too. Which is always happy.

-I’ve been having epic hangout times with my friends a lot lately and I’ve realized how much I’m going to miss them when I move next year.

-I’ve been getting into studio-ish photography a lot lately. Unfortunately, the only subject I have is myself. But I really enjoy taking/editing photos. A lot. Like, probably more than I should.

-There’s currently a massive snow/ice storm going on where I live and it’s getting obnoxious. But at the same time I really enjoy not having to go to school.

Also, there’s been a lack of picture taking in my life lately due to laziness, I suppose. I’m rather sad about this. :/

it’s been a while since I’ve updated this....

Mon, 13 Dec 2010 14:39:00 -0500

we made t-shirts for the HP release. :)

turkey gravy day feast (same day as HP).

(some of) team chaki before HP.

this really does sum up the night. :)

hagrid!

best friend!

it’s been a while since I’ve updated this. I’m sorry!

1. I FINALLY got my license (as of last tuesday). So I can FINALLY drive my car. I love freedom. SO much.

2. I went to the midnight release of The seventh Harry Potter film a few weeks ago and it was ridiculously epic. We watched the sixth movie before going, we ate pizza, went to wal-mart to get more food, and hung out in the theater for about 3 hours before the film started. But we got there at 6 to wait in line. The movie didn’t start until 12:01. We’re dedicated Harry Potter fans. :)

3. I got paid money to sit around and take dogs outside over thanksgiving break which was pretty great.

4. I got accepted into Bowling Green! Last weekend I went up with Megan and her dad to tour the campus/get info. about my major (visual communication technology aka: VCT) and I absolutely LOVED it. I want to go there so badly.

5. I’ve been beasting things up in my speech class. I won an impromptu tournament which made me really happy. Because I never win anything. Ever. Except this time. :)

Dear Self,

Thu, 11 Nov 2010 01:00:23 -0500

Dear Self,

in recent news: -I went through senior night as a senior. -I...

Mon, 08 Nov 2010 23:14:06 -0500

in recent news:

-I went through senior night as a senior.

-I went to my LAST football game. and I cried in front of half my section. but it was kind of presh.

-I did my LAST spirit week. and it was pretty epic. :)

-I turned into an adult. meep.

-I applied for college. eastern michigan. bowling green. kent. I have my fingers crossed for bowling green.

-I did my LAST audition for any band. ever.

-I went to my LAST band prom and I had lots of fun. :)

this weekend was good. :) these are mostly pictures from...

Mon, 18 Oct 2010 16:04:48 -0400

this weekend was good. :)

these are mostly pictures from saturday. katie brought out her guitar and it was so pretty, I couldn’t resist taking pictures. :) and my friends in general are just super photogenic.

it was a GOOD weekend. :)

today instead of doing homework I had a bit of a photo shoot...

Sat, 09 Oct 2010 22:45:00 -0400

today instead of doing homework I had a bit of a photo shoot with myself (which makes me feel conceited, but hey, I’m the only person that’s around 24/7, so I figured I might as well take advantage of the few resources I’ve got!) and then I got a little edit-happy and decided to make just about all of them black & white. and I’m actually quite happy with the way a lot of them turned out.

this is what I do instead of homework.

Wed, 29 Sep 2010 20:56:42 -0400

this is what I do instead of homework.

On Being a Senior.

Mon, 27 Sep 2010 12:03:29 -0400

On Being a Senior.

last night was my last homecoming. and it was super fun. I went...

Sun, 26 Sep 2010 16:44:54 -0400

mellos! :)

last night was my last homecoming. and it was super fun. I went with my friend andrew. we went to carrabba’s for dinner and then we hung out at starbucks afterwords. and it was probably my favorite homecoming. I can’t believe there are only 3 more dances in high school that I’ll get to go to. it’s kind of scary.

senior year thus far has been weird. my classes are good, but hard. and I’m not sure how it’s going to go. :/ and then it all just feels so unimportant because I have so many more important things to be doing, like applying for college, getting a job or getting my license (yeah, still don’t have it. ugh).

so that’s where I’m at.

hey, blog. sorry I fell off the face of the tumblr planet for a...

Thu, 16 Sep 2010 23:02:53 -0400

hey, blog.

sorry I fell off the face of the tumblr planet for a few weeks… I got busy with school, I guess?

here’s a few pictures, just to keep myself semi-updated. even though I failed the 30 day tumblr challenge. :/ maybe I’ll pick it up again sometime.

trading places.

Tue, 31 Aug 2010 16:28:20 -0400

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I’d want to switch lives with one of those people at school who I always think are having the easiest and best times of their lives so that when I switched back to being me, I could see that my situation life really isn’t the tragic event that I sometimes think it is.

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Mon, 30 Aug 2010 16:12:29 -0400

Day 16- Another picture of yourself